Stop.

Stop the breathing.
Stop the blood flow.
Stop the heartbeat.

Stop the tears.
Stop the emotion.
Stop.

Stop the fears, the thoughts, the voices, the echos, the sounds, thedarknesstheunknowntheflashbackstheemptinesstheabyssthescreamsthecries-

Stop.

Borrowed Words: I Hope This Only Happens In My Nightmares

I said,
"I'm lost without you
And I can't breathe without you
And I can't love without you
But I'm leaving you now"

You've been talking in your sleep
Things you never say to me...
You used to lie so close to me
Now there's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love

Is it time to let you go?

If this was a movie, 
I'd say

"Turn around, come back, so I don't dream without you"
And I promise I will make you want to stay

But I don't know
How to be something you'd miss
I'm lost 'cause you're the only thing I know

It hurts to let you go.

I can already see you
Sleeping next to a new lover
Sharing your dreams with another
And all I can think is 
You won't find this
But I don't know how to be something you'd miss

If we fall apart

Please remember me at my best

Because the best part of me was always you

And you can keep my heart
It's more at home in your hand
Than in my chest

I don't know
How to be something you'd miss
Because I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Your name, forever the name on my lips

That last kiss I'll cherish

Until we meet again

I'll keep you in my memory;

I hope you think of me.

The Bottom Line

*lights up*

"If you're so perfectly capable, why don't you do it all yourself? You don't even need me at all!"

    "I never said anything of the sort! You're jumping to conclusions based on your own rash assumptions."

"There you go again with your oh-so-logical, high and mighty brain. I was just trying to help you! Why are you getting all worked up about this?

"I didn't ask for your help! I left that there for a reason, and you shouldn't go around touching my stuff."

"And how was I supposed to know that? Can you not see anything from my perspective?"

"Well it's not like you're making it particularly easy for me! As if my life wasn't difficult enough as is."

"Oh, I make your life difficult? I'm so sick of this."

"Yeah, then why don't you go ahead and break up with me?"

"NO!"

(pause)

"No?"

"No... not like this. I refuse to lose us over something like this. I promised myself that I would always fight for us, because..."

"I love you."

"And I love you."

*blackout*

Energy

Here's a story, once again
Of a girl too grand for the life she lived

She was a butterfly

A Southern Belle, as they said

But the mundane life in her speck of a town

Sanded her smile down to the grains of dust

That rested for centuries on dry ground

Exhausted by the familiarity

She spent her days staring past the safety

Of the bars of her gilded cage

She wasn't a dreamer
She believed in what she could touch

But she fell in love

With the patch of sky just beyond the horizon

No one seemed to understand 

Eighteen was no different than seventeen

Or sixteen for that fact

She wondered how long she would remain unchanged

If she could freeze time, an ironic notion, really

The only thing she would do 

Is run as far as she possibly could with outstretched arms

Simply to feel the grass underneath her feet

And the wind in her hair
She longs for the rain
To wipe away her tears and wash away the exhaustion
To work its magic on the Earth
So that she, too, could feel alive again 

Because anything that moves is better than nothing at all

Borrowed Words: Can We Keep the Ever After?

Take me back to the summer days...

This night's a perfect shade of dark blue
I don't know why I’m drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we’d equal two?
Light my heart up, baby, like a matchstick
And hit the gas quick
When our fingers interlock
[Sing] along to the start of forever
I'm ready to run, if you are

I don't want to be a bride
But you're the only reason that I wanna see the stars tonight
And only you keep me dreaming
We'll stay young and go dancing
We're a duchess and a prince
This feels like falling in love

Every time we kiss, I reach for the sky
laugh[ing] all night lying in the grass just talking about love

Trying to skip rocks on the ocean

Don't you dream impossible things?

I'm thinking two is better than one
But I don't want to be a bride

I just wanna be your girl, and spend this life with you
Don't count the miles; count the I-love-yous
Let them wonder how we got this far
Cause I don't need to wonder anymore
Can we keep the ever after, love?

I'll be your sunset

If you'll be my silhouette

I'm ready to run, if you are

If my heart was a compass, you'd be north

I don't want to be a bride
But forever is a long time
And I've realized, I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
You're the best thing I never knew I needed

Heaven is a place on Earth with you

They say that the world was built for two

Only worth living if somebody is loving you

If my heart was a house

You'd be home

The pen's in [our] hand[s] 

Ending unplanned 

In the end I want to be standing

At the beginning with you

(from: Breanne Düren, Jack's Mannequin, JRA, Bridgit Mendler, Paramore, Alyssa Reid, Vanessa Carlton, Adelaie, Diego Boneta, Death Cab for Cutie, Taylor Swift, Ed Sheeran, Cascada, Jessica Simpson, Boys Like Girls, Chrisina Perri, A Rocket to the Moon, Ne-Yo, Owl City, Lana Del Rey, He Is We, Natasha Bedingfield, Richard Marx & Donna Lewis)

Conversation Hearts

I sit beside a cup of hot tea 

Watching the clouds sift icing sugar

Over the city landscape turned Candyland-scape

With a bag of conversation hearts

The calendar turns a page

And suddenly everyone has a sweet tooth

I breathe in a tendril of spicy vanilla chai steam

And open the bag of conversation hearts

I pinch the corner and tug upwards
And watch the pastel coloured confectioneries
Spill eagerly over my tabletop

Sweet, giggling conversation hearts

I smile back at them, remembering
Sparkling eyes and knowing smiles
Sleepovers and fantasy worlds and us
All thanks to conversation hearts

The sweetest hearts I've ever known
Taught me that love comes in all colours
Equally sweet and sincere
Like conversation hearts

So this is for you, my angels
I wish only the best for you
And I hope together forever is true
Because I miss your conversation hearts

And of course my thoughts
Would not be complete without you
The mere mention of your name brings to life
A thousand conversation hearts

Like the draft outside my window
Sends snowflakes flurrying into the minty winter air
You have the the same effect on the
Heartbeats of conversation hearts

As they flutter back down to reality
I line them up in chronological order
Your words diffuse through my chest
And bond like the text on conversation hearts

My fingertips graze the candied crossroads
And bring your words to life
I realize the journey is worth far more
Than individual conversation hearts

And as the afternoon fades to evening
I find the answers to all my questions
Mapped out on my tabletop
In the simplicity of conversation hearts

I push back my chair just in time to see
A pair of shooting stars streak through the sky
Leaving a trail of pixels behind
A dotted line of conversation hearts